The Chain

The sky looks pissed

The wind talks back

My bones are shifting in my skin

And you my love are gone

My room seems wrong

The bed won't fit

I cannot seem to operate

And you my love are gone

So glide away on soapy heels

And promise not to promise anymore

And if you come around again

Then I will take, then I will take the chain from off the door

I'll never say I'll never love

But I don't say a lot of things

And you my love are gone

We Are Water

Time can take its toll on the best of us

Look at you you're growing old so young

Traffic lights blink at you in the evening

Tilt your head and turn it to the sun

Sometimes the T.V. is like a lover

Singing softly as you fall asleep

You wake up in the morning and it's still there

Adding up the things you'll never be

Alright, I can say what you want me to,

Alright, I can do all the things you do,

Alright, I'll make it all up for you,

I'm still in love with you,

I'm still in love with you

Time can take its toll on the best of us

Look at you you're growing old so young

Traffic lights blink at you in the evening

You tilt your head and turn it to the sun

You disembark the latest flight from paradise

You almost turn your ankle on the snow

You fall back into where you started

Make up words to songs you used to know

So...

Alright, I can say what you want me to,

Alright, I can do all the things you do,

Alright, I'll make it all up for you,

I'm still in love with you,

I'm still in love with you,

The hard luck god

You never had a chance you know

Incurable romantics never do

He held the flame I wasn't born to carry

I'll leave the dieing young stuff up to you

You get back on the latest flight to paradise

I found out, from a note taped to the door

I think I saw your airplane in the sky tonight

Through my window, lying on the kitchen floor.

Alright, I can say what you want me to,

(I want more)

Alright, I can do all the things you do,

(Give me more)

Alright, I'll make it all up for you,

I'm still in love with you,

I'm still in love with you,

(I want more)

Alright, I'll say you want me to,

(Give Me More)

Alright, I'll do all the things you do,

(I Want More From You)

Alright, I'll make it all up for you,

I'm still in love with you,

I'm still in love with you.

I have always been a loyal fan of Stars but after having Heart looped over yet once again it made me slightly nauseous, slightly irked, slightly worn over the fact that I am done and over with the emotion nicknamed as 'Love'. It is revolting, and if not given by a genuine soul, it will burn you inside out. Amazing how millions of souls across the globe lust for this, what you label as, 'Love'.

Neutron Star Collision

Just a heads up: I'm returning to that peculiar habit where I confide in this tech-whiz blog where everyone can see or rather read what I type. It is forming into a detrimental procedure by which I punch in every key of the computer to embody the amount of loss and confusion that I find myself walling into. I should say that I have dug my own grave in this whirlwind of emotion that I get myself into. For a month I have tried various attempts to lift my spirit. It might not have worked out in the best of ways, but it had definitely given me the introspect to view how gullible a human being can be and at the opposite end; how much insensitivity another could contain in themselves. I can't fathom the fact that the special spark that glowed was actually something synthetically deceitful.

The candle that I thought would continue illuminating the dark morphed into another that stained my vision to produce pre-mediated thoughts and hopes concentrated with so much falsity. I have not ever indulged in turning to an online 'journal' where I would pen(or rather key) in feelings but I guess I am slowly giving in. I did not realize that we humans could be capable of emancipating such raw emotion(love) until I found myself falling through a colossal borough.

You have taught me how to care, how to love. You have also taught me to feel death. Do I feel irony in the air? Pretty much so, I fear.

Electric Valentine

Every once in a while, I would indulge this space with still life. It does make me feel..better?

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Things changed last night.

The question that stands throbbing is: for better or for worse?

Although things might have seem to surface as positive,

my mind still is a trainwreck remnant.

Field Music

18.9.xx

The Never Ending Why

I could say that today was just another day,

I could say that it was just another of those fluctuations,

I could say that it reset the lines for our start,

I could say that I felt like I had my emotions toiled,

.

.

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but I would like to say that it was mesmerizingly beautiful.

14-18, xx.

Wolves II

We'll not stop, yes? I know we won't.

If forever could be a person embodying our two en-captured minds,

the world, grass, sky will be added with clarity.

xx, 18.

Within Me A Lunatic Sings

I backed my car into a cop car, the other day.
Well he just drove off, sometimes life's ok.
I ran my mouth off a bit too much, oh what did I say.
Well you just laughed it off, it was all ok.

And we'll all float on, ok.
And we'll all float on any way, well.

A fake Jamaican took every last dime with a scam.
It was worth it just to learn some sleight-of-hand.
Bad news comes don't you worry even when it lands.
Good news will work its way to all them plans.
We both got fired on exactly the same day.
Well we'll float on good news is on the way.

And we'll all float on, ok.
And we'll all float on, alright.
Already we'll all float on.
No, don't you worry, we'll all float on.
Alright, already, we'll all float on.
Alright, don't worry, we'll all float on.

Alright already we'll all float on.
Alright don't worry even if things end up a bit too heavy.
We'll all float on...alright. Already we'll all float on.
Alright already we'll all float on, ok.
Don't worry we'll all float on.
Even if things get heavy, we'll all float on.

Alright already we'll all float on.

My happy pill, my sole angel. I think I finally know what this is. Light is near. The tunnel is short, the journey is worthwhile.

Sugarcult

Just when the sweetest bit in life starts slipping away- absentmindedly. Don't lose your grip.

Fine Frenzy

The greatest irony of love; loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life.Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them, we are just for passing time while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger.

When walking out could be a definite option. Should I escape;  escape this image my mind is always filled with of the profanities of love. I wish reality could hit me- right here, right now. So are you the option or the rejection? I shan't dare gather courage with my hands and mould them into something that might end something so beautiful. Seconds stroll past, minutes linger along, hours crawl. 

To E: Thank you for sticking by for the last couple of days when I was adopting a rather frugal and fragile persona. I love you for everything and the words you always give me.

To C: I love the ballerina that you are. For staying on the phone with me till dawn breaks, hearing my tears fall and my heartbeat slow down to a gradual stop. Love you Clara. 

Stars Are Falling

It was sweet while it lasted. Need you so much closer;like heart needs a beat. But who am I to kid, this is not the lusted for fairy tale. Does the word forever scare you? When time comes, we'll bid the sweetest goodbye. And as of may 11, I call on separation.